Sep
27
2007

What is Jesus Doing

Of all the memories my most precious was shortly after Jonathan came home from his first round of chemtherapy.  He was so sick he could not walk up the stairs (half flight) without looking like he would pass out. For me that was painful, but for the kiddos it was confusing.  Why can't Daddy play with me anymore or even hold me?  I can't begin to  understand what they were thinking.  Hey, I can barely understand what I was feeling most of the time!  Anyway, back to my story... we were sitting down at the dinner table and Benjamin asks out of the blue, "What is Jesus doing right now?"  The verse in the Bible that talks about Jesus interceeding for us on the right hand of the Father popped into my head so I told him that "Jesus is praying for us right now."  He thought about it for a moment and then said "Mommy, does that mean Jesus is praying for Daddy's owie right now?"  Of course, neither one of us could respond because we were fighting back the tears.  When I regained some control, I told him that "Yes, Benjamin, I am sure Jesus is praying for your Daddy's owie right now."

Oh the sweet assurance that he carries with him is a lesson to me.  Once we told him that Jesus was praying for us, Benjamin was satisfied.  How often do I want proof to back up what I read.  But, Lord I don't feel it, I don't see it, I don't understand it... He doesn't want anything more from me than simple childlike faith.  Yep, He IS praying for me and He only wants the best for me and my family.  What a comfort to know that we are safe in His loving hands.

Sep
21
2007

Pray for God's Guidance

How does one write about such things when those reading cannot see the feelings that are being conveyed.  Next to impossible, so I am going to say from the beginning that Jonathan and I are confident in the outcome of these surgery procedures.  We are confident that our God is an awesome God and NOTHING is to difficult for Him.  We know that He is Sovereign and loves us with an everlasting love.  When I start reminding myself of some of His atributes I get so excited that I have a hard time stopping!  Just suffice it to say, that this is but one more step on our journey that began this Spring.

On October 17th we will be heading to Kansas University Hospital for all three procedures.  We met the Urologist that will be performing the surgery on his stomach and testicle on Monday of this week.  On Thursday we met the Ear, Nose, Throat surgeon that will be performing the operation on his neck.  He will have the longest recovery from the stomach incision (big surprise) but the most touchy surgery will be on his neck.  Our biggest prayer is that the tumors left over from the treatment is only scar tissue and that the doctors will be able to remove all remaining tissue.  The Urologist is confident that he will be able to get all involved lymph nodes removed without any trouble.  The ENT is hoping and praying that the tissue is only scar tissue so that if he has to leave any of it there will be no further treatment needed.  Dr Neubauer (our oncologist) and Dr Holzheierlein (the surgeon who specilizes in treating testicular cancer) are pretty confident that the tissue is only scar tissue becuase of how low his blood tumor markers were at the last reading.  The ENT is not a specialist in treating testicular cancer as the other two doctors are and will operate with the care needed to make sure he does not damage any of the nerves in Jonathan's neck.  The tumor in his neck is "attached" to the main muscle on the neck and from the looks on the CT scan is putting pressure on the voice box nerve, the nerve that controls the diaphragm on the left side, and the carotid artery.  The doctor will do his best to remove all the residual tumor but will be very careful to not damage any nerves.  That is why we pray there are no left over cancer cells in his body.

On a more humerous note both appointments at KU ended up taking from 2pm to 5pm.  We actually waited in the waiting room on the first appoinment almost 2 hours before seeing the doctor.  On the second appointment we waited 1 1/2 hours before seeing the doctor.  We wanted to ask the surgeon if we would be waiting 4 hours before they will be able to begin surgery?  I can tell you that those waiting rooms get REAL boring after about 20 minuts and the offices at KU don't have any reading material to entertain you after you first look at all the instruments.  I guess we will just have to wait and see.

Sep
19
2007

Are you my Mommy...

Last night Jonathan and I had a date and one of the young ladies from our church blessed us by baby sitting our little ones.  The kids had a great time with Katie Criss and we had a great evening out without listening to "Mommy, Daddy" for a couple of hours.  It always cracks me up to think of how much we yearn to hear those precious words when our kids are infants and then can't wait for them to stop.  The ever changing things of life.  At any rate, when we came home at 9:30 I was so surprised to find that all three of our kids we already sound asleep.  WOW - this girl is a keeper!  It only became more "funny" at 3 in the morning when Emily woke up screaming for Katie Criss.  I was jolted awake with a voice crying, "Katie Criss, Katie Criss, Katie Criss" over and over until I walked into the room.  She didn't know that Mommy had come home.  Once she realized I was home and would take care of her she went back to sleep very quickly. 

Thank goodness.  It was a reminder of how much they need the assurance that all is well in their little world.  It only took a hug and some reassuring words from Mommy for Emily's night scare to go away.  Granted some nights the night scare takes a little longer to work through, but when we quote her verse "When I am afraid I will trust in You, In God whose Word is true." it helps her to put her trust in our Heavenly Father.  If only we would remember that same faith and trust as adults.  My Heavely Father is always there and only has His best at heart for me.

Sep
17
2007

Patch Work Quilt

Is that on fabric or on the body???  I guess it depends on if you are talking to a surgeon or a seamstress.

Today we met our surgeon - a very loud talking but kind hearted gentleman.  After waiting 2 hours to see the doctor we were given a little bit of a surprise.  He informed us that Jonathan would be in the hospital for 3 - 5 days after surgery depending on how long it takes for his body get back to normal.  He will be having 3 procedures but thankfully only one operation.  There will be a head and neck specialist to remove the tumor on his neck and the Urologist will be doing the other two.  The "simple" procedure will be removing the testicle. The "involved" procedure will be opening the stomach and removing all the enlarged lymph glands.  Jonathan will have an incision from sternum to 3 inches below the belly button.  Needless to say he will be in massive pain for a few weeks.  Please continue to pray for grace and mercy as we embark on this last leg of our journey.

Sep
15
2007

Snip, Snip, BUZZ

We have finally experienced the dreaded hair cut by your child.  It started out innocent enough... but then again don't they all?  I had just finished giving Benjamin a nice trim and turned around to shake out a blanket that somehow ended up at my feet.  While I had my back turned my brilliant 5 year old decided that he did not want to wait for me to trim the sideburns and neck area and took matters into his own hands.  With the battery operated clipper he took a swipe right down the middle of his head  - and yes you guessed it there was no blade guard.  Right down to the scalp.  There are really no options to "fix" a hair cut such as that so he ended up looking very much like his Daddy - skin head.  After I had "fixed' the haircut Benjamin headed up to the bathroom to check out his new do.  He climbed up on the step stool, stuck his hand on his head and exclaimed in a very amazed tone, "NO  WAY!"  Priceless... the things we do as kids and get away with.  I was just soooo thankful that it was not an experiment on one of the girls heads.   Please no ideas!
Aug
12
2007

To God be the Glory

Another week has passed in the infusion room for us.  Jonathan has braved it well this time and made it until Thursday night before getting sick.  It has made Friday not so fun, but it is encouraging to hope that we won’t be back in four weeks.  That is right, Jonathan’s blood tumor marker is showing dramatic improvement and the doctor is pretty confident that we won’t be back.  YIPPEE!!!!  His tumor marker was at 2400 when we started chemo.  Normal is 8, and after only two rounds his is already down to 24! 

This week I have had so many opportunities to spread the love of Jesus to others who are undergoing chemo too.  As in weeks past I come home energized and emotionally exhausted at the stories and pain I hear when I talk with these people.  However, I greatly rejoice at the perfect place God has me to spread His message and His love.  I have had the chance to pray with a few of these patients and bring a smile to many of their faces.  I praise God for this chance to serve Him and have his name glorified.  There is a part of me that is sad to say goodbye to the patients that the Lord has placed in my path, but as in all things His timing is perfect and my time here is in His hands.  To God is the glory He has done amazing things!

Aug
6
2007

The Hand of God

God is amazing and perfect in every way.  Too often we only realize this in hindsight.  Even so a reminder is indescribably reassuring and comforting.  I was diagnosed with testicular cancer in late May of this year.  I was never sick or in pain.  I never exhibited any signs of abnormality except for a swollen lymph node that God made clearly visible on my neck.  Without this visible evidence I would have never known I needed medical attention until it may have been too late. 

What about His perfect timing?  I was in the first week of recovery after my second round of chemotherapy.  This week in the treatment cycle is more difficult than the actual week of treatment.  The drugs have fully infiltrated the body and the patient is exhausted from fighting the effects and side-effects.  Activities outside of lying in bed or on the sofa are usually out of the question.  Our church family had been showering us with love by managing our lawn, running errands, bringing meals, and relieving us of our three children.  On one particular evening of this “first recovery week” Ruth Mullins from church was bringing us a meal.  She was on her way out the door when her phone rang.  Another lady from church, June Hanson, needed to discuss some details about VBS.  She was delayed 15 – 20 minutes from arriving at our house.  God’s timing was perfect!  Just before she walked in the door Benjamin, our 5-year-old, sprayed himself in the eye with Martha’s perfume.  (How do 5-year-olds manage to do this kind of stuff anyway?)  There was no way I would have been able to help Martha hold down this screaming terrified child in order to flush his eye out with water.  Ruth didn’t even wait to be asked.  She just said “Let’s do it”!  She and Martha took turns holding him and pouring water in his eye until the crisis was over. 

God continues to show Himself to us almost daily.  I start my third round and most likely the last round of chemo therapy tomorrow.  My blood tumor markers are already almost normal.  God is awesome and I’m so grateful for this cancer and the opportunity to see Him at work.  Stay tuned for more updates on the life and times of the Slaven family!

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